Ferreting Out My Dreams

I just finished the article, "What Did You Dream Last Night?" in the August, 2011 issue of The Sun.  I've also been working my way through the book, Native American Ways: Four Paths to Enlightenment.  I seem to be fixated on my dreams.  I don't think this is a bad thing, and, as both this article and the book point out, our dreams have something to tell us about our past, present, and even our future.  Probably the most important thing from what I've been reading is that we shouldn't ignore our dreams.  Guess that means I can't ignore the ferret that showed up in my dream last night.  Once again I went to my favorite dream interpretation website, www.dreammoods.com, to discover that "To see a ferret in your dream, symbolizes distrust and suspicion of others. The dream may also be a pun on searching."  The distrust would be how I'm feeling toward my ex-husband as he manipulates the previously agreed upon divorce settlement b/c he didn't like how he would be getting his half of my retirement account.  The searching interpretation for the ferret would definitely be that each day since my cancer diagnosis, I try to search for ways to keep myself physically, emotionally, spiritually, and intellectually healthy and balanced.  Unfortunately that balancing act has left me paralyzed in accomplishing any major task beyond the necessities today.  But I refuse to feel guilty about sitting on the couch all afternoon watching On Demand episodes of Necessary Roughness and Royal Pains.  Even before my cancer diagnosis I had to have down times to recharge my batteries.  I'm going to look upon this as just that, a recharging day.  Maybe there's even a third interpretation for my ferret dream: I'm searching for someone to trust, and that person is me.  I have to trust that I'm doing exactly what I need to be doing right now and not searching for something that I think I should be doing b/c it's what's expected.