Day 38 -- Silly Thoughts During a Massage

I pampered myself today and got a massage.  I had the massage therapist just focus on my neck and shoulders since that's where I carry most of my stress.  She told me to tell her if she was applying too much pressure....it was close a few times, but I really wanted a deep tissue massage so I sucked it up.  At the beginning of the massage, I was thinking such silly thoughts while she was working on my neck.  Thoughts like, "Is it possible for her to dislodge the stainless steel coil implanted in my brain stem b/c of the aneurysm?"  I quickly pushed that thought aside and let her cradle my neck.  When she got to my arms, I wondered, "Is is possible for her to irritate the cancerous lymph nodes?"  I immediately dismissed that thought and melted into her touch.  Then I thought about the workshop I'm going to conduct w/ the massage therapy students in a couple of weeks.  "Can I deduct today's massage as work-related research?"  Finally, as my muscles unraveled, my brain followed suit.  I think I may have snored at one point.  I have another massage in two weeks.  I hope I can find the off-switch to my brain before then.