Day 54 -- Little Mary Sunshine

Some days I get really tired of being "Little Mary Sunshine."  So this morning after an extremely frustrating nine o'clock class, I decided not to be..."sunshiny," not "frustrated."  I walked down the hallways at the college where I teach w/ a scowl on my face and not looking at people, two actions that are quite contrary to my public persona.  Two of my students walked passed me expecting a warm smile and greeting.  Instead I stared straight ahead and said nothing.  "Why should I be friendly toward you when you don't even have the common courtesy and respect to show up to my class," I thought.  So I was feeling pretty good with this chip on my shoulder...very freeing not to feel constantly on display.  Then two students stopped by my office to ask if I was okay....damn them.  My chip started to chip.  Then I talked w/ my friend Lora, and she made me laugh.....damn her.  My chip now had lost a big chunk.  Then I got home and listened to my younger daughter giggle w/ her theatre friends.....damn them.  My chip was now a mini-chip.  Then I went to a Damon Dotson concert.....damn him.  My micro-chip dissolved.  Maybe I'll try again tomorrow to be a grouch.